Transcription Of Prince Mocha: "Life is not that easy"

Assalamualaikum peeps..

This time, I'm just wanna share what I feel inside of me. Being a person like me is not easy. Lots of challenges and extremes path for me to go through. Sometimes, somehow, you can be hurt by people even though you didn't wish for it. That's life. Its just happen whether you like it or not. You can't control it. Nobody can. Sometime, you can be on top and sometime also, you can be at the bottom. Just need to accept it. That is how the world keep spinning and we have to survive in this world. Never expect something always good in life. It can be worst. Let the life be like a surprise for us. Thus, no sad feelings will disturb. As for me, I'm also not feel so blessed like other person, but i'm still grateful with what I already have. Its a long journey to be here. My life is not as happy as other people. People can only see me laughing and smiling outside. On the other side, no one knows. How suffer I am, how sad I feel.. Nobody knows. Sometimes, I felt so envy to other people, even towards my friends. They have everything that I want. They have lots of people who will always be with them, supporting them, continuing to love them. For me, I don't think so. I don't think that I'm so lovable. Huhu.. I'm not as genius as them, not talented like them. I'm just me. Nothing special. Be surrounding with gorgeous people, talented, and excellent in studies makes me so down to earth. So small. Small enough to be seen. Its like there are a big range between me and them, I'm dreaming to have ability that they have. What a lucky life that they had. Yes, I'm so envy of them. But, I'm still grateful to have a chance to have a life even not as happy as other people. See.. Life is not that easy for me. Anyway, i would like to express my gratitude to persons that always understanding me, supporting, keep giving me advises and patient with me all the time. They are my friends or Chinggu (in Korea), Muhamad Hafizi & Wan Mohamad Firdaus. Thanks so much guys. I don't really know what to say to both of you. I'm speechless. In my condition right know, receive your support was a great thing for me to stay fighting not only in my life, but also in my studies. Both of you encourage me to forget the past, start a new life, get a better result even I was failed in several attempts. Am I thinking to much? Am I too sensitive? People can only said. They have no idea on what am I going through. They totally don't know at all. For some types of friends, they only stick with me during happy times. Instead, when I have problems or sad times they dump me. Pity me right? Having them as friends. Hurmmm.. I think i will end up this entry here.. There was too much already.. =) I'll continue later on.. =)